the routine

My class started last week. the turnout has been pretty weak with only 11 or so of us here at one time out of the 30 or so that were signed up although i find it pretty typical. thinking about typicality makes me think about people's predictability especially people that you've come to get to know over longer periods of time. I always go through a phase where i tire of my friends as they seem to be in a rutt of sorts doing a whole lot of nothing just for the sake of passing the time until something meaningful comes along. that is not to say that i am not guilty of the same but when i step back and realize this i hate it and my mind becomes frantic with what ifs. what if i was more outgoing? what if i had a more widely appealing personality? what if i were to just stop being me all together and be come a full blown social chameleon who blended in with any group he was with not only in mentality but also appearance? my sense of individuality refuses this idea and becomes condecending of my thoughts. as such i resort to the solution i always do. rather than changing myself it may be time to change the people i have around me. i can only hope that i run into people that can help me make this so.

im tired of the overemotional, paranoid, and downright childish scenarios i hear from people as well as dealing with pathetic "victim of circumstance" types. until next time!

-CJ BISHES!

p.s. if by some chance a friend reads this don't be foolish and ask "is it i?" because if you do than yes...yes it is.

UPs and downs.

Saw the new pixar movie UP today. it was really good though is it bad that i had a hard time keeping myself from crying during some parts of it? who would have thought indeed. other than that just some early father's day stuff that will continue on into tomorrow.....or should i say later today. besides that not too much went down today other than it was SIGNIFICANTLY warmer than it was the day before (mostly due to lack of rain/muggyness due to rain). that's all for now. till next time!

-CJ BISHES!

P.S. finally sat myself down to see Wall-E today. also very good! managed to get a song from the up soundtrack on my phone as well.

list of things that i want to do.

This first post is going to be simple mainly because if i were to try to cover everything i've done since i've last posted on livejournal it would kill my hands. (maybe later).

1. get a job
2.do well in my summer class
3.get some new local friends
4. get a girlfriend
5. get some newer clothes
6. clean my car (eventually)
7. refine my current circle of friends.

so far so good on #2 but the rest is pretty much going nowhere. wish me luck

-CJ BISHES! (aaah i miss doing that)

Also, is it strange that when i found a 5 dollar bill in front of a church that i immediately thought it was because some random person was watching to see what people would do? thankfully i rarely listen to my own paranoia so now im 5 dollars richer! living it up to be sure XD