Also it seems like I am being ridiculed and constantly reminded that i am not going to be finishing my degree in 4 years. Dad did another one of his rousing "i give up and hate and love you" speeches about my progress in my classes even though i really am at a stalemate with my core classes until i can get over this derptastic lack of math skill and pass calc. I think part of him thinks that if I am not outwardly rattled by my situation then i clearly must either not care or be a fucking idiot. Quite frankly it's his attitude if anything that sparks any kind of apathy from me as i know how rough things are yet i also know that how i have to handle things takes time. If he is really going to get that impatient with me then I would wish he'd grow a spine enough to just cut me off instead of throwing these pointless hissy fits at me. It's to the point that i continue arguments like this in my dreams because it bothers me so damn much. This isn't a sudden change in his character though as it's always been his way to be overly dramatic about things. It is something that i gained as a trait myself although i try to fight it.
On a lighter note, Christmas and New Years were fun. Basically jumping between parties for both though the bulk of them except new years (kinda) were family based. Its kind of getting to the point where im scraping the barrel of family/relatives to keep it fresh because even though they are good peoples (mostly) im tired of seeing the same family crews over and over. Then again that's only on the Ledesma side, the Rosarios apparently just scattered to the four winds and hardly talk to each other anymore unless it's over stupid facebook statuses. I am glad to have the WSU group back for the semester as they are my main source of laughs nowadays (and not in an assholeish way.....mostly XD) that being said it's starting to look like a small world after all as people are starting to know each other more in my different circle of friends and i am amused/urked by that.
Even with the fresher nuances i really need to get my wheels turning financially so i can get out of this place. I used to scoff at my friends who took off early to be on their own because of all the times i had to see them fall on their faces but through it all they came out pretty well and quite frankly i think i would enjoy that kind of life alot better. Until then this is my new low.
-CJ YOU FUCKS!
P.S. Janky Mooks derp. expect to hear those alot if you talk to me until i find some other words to spam in conversation.
update. got a job at a place called stevi b's in woodhaven. also click the shit out of this. tis an interesting program to mess with that im sure you've heard of. help me help you!!
